lovey dovey dove love

i heard once said that, love is something that hide behind your eyes, with one glance everything will fall back again . 
and damn it ..... its true .
that love only need one glance to make it go back again ..... 
cinta itu adalah sesuatu yang bersembunyi di balik mata lo , dengan satu pandangan semuanya bisa balik lagi, semua perasaan itu . 
semua yang selama ini udah lo coba pendem , semua yang selama ini coba lo ga pikirin, segalanya yang selama ini lo coba buat ga pentingin . semua itu bisa kembali dalam satu pandangan . 
so here i am stuck in the same old love dovey dove love issue . 
what? imma normal teenagers . i am meant to fall in love with a lot of people at the same time . i am supposed to be this reckless throwing out my heart loving everybody .... 
until my one true love reveal.... right?
but it kills me ..... the pain . is killing me inside . but i dont mind, embrace the pain dude! embrace the feeling of hurt . learn from it . what doesnt kill you make you stronger . 
just lets say ... i think valdy's story is repeated now .
anyway im transferring school to Global Jaya ..... well just hope that i can survive there and i meet someone nice . and nicer ..................................... i wish 
no im just kidding .
anyway im so stressed out by the thought oh HIM ... yeah HIM . he really know how to make me sad seriously .... well its not exactly his fault . i mean he done nothing but nice to me , but a little bit of unacceptable tone in sentence drives me insane ... i hope this is just another silly crush .
by the way im listening to michael bubble - cry me a river which made me felt like MARIO HERMAN FAZARY is screaming right before my ear with this song . shidddddddd. i feel like i wanna kill my self . or simply just kill him from my head would've been no problem . 
i miss him . so much . hey dude how are you? long time no see . 
i dont know what im talking about right now . so random . and unorganized . im so screwed . and i NEED to kill my brother right now.... not really i love him actually . 
but what ever . 
but one thing you shud know i love CAHYAPITOL 
he's my best friend ....... today . 
i have new respect for him today . HUGE new respect . 
smurf you dude ... so much . 
im trying so hard right now to understand the life i have right now . 
hope i find my way straight .... SOON i need it . 
and my sanity too . it felt like im losing my in this world called reality . seriously . why can dreams become my reality . i really really want to live like inception . you know its so cool . how i can spend years and years in limbo and not aged at all in real life . 
but what eff my life is not some fraking movie. i direct my own life . 
seriously .. all i wanted is my life to be like FTV . with guys doing wonderful stuff for you . all i need is white roses ... 
story of my crappy life . 
so.............. Au Revoir . see you guys .