Please.... I beg.

tut

so here how it goes, you know what, i'm so tired of everything i'm here just a few miles from him and i can't even see he's face. for god sake it takes me 3FUCKIN HOURS to get here. its okay, maybe i just miss him so much and i get sensitive though .

still........... i just wanna see his face i don't go sitting like a total idiot for 3 hours in a fuckin mini bus contain strangers for nothing.

well i finally decided to just having fun. in fact NO FUN AT ALL , i mean i have fun its just not like that.

i was here for him at the first place, but i didn't blame him .

cause he didn't ask me to come here at the first place, i went here by my own thought .

but but but .. i don't know why everything just sound not right .

now i put my headset on, and plugged the aux to my phone repeating Give Me Everything - Pitbull Ft. Ne-yo cause i can imagine his face singing this song.

well he did sing thing song on our way home after incredible3 , i never picture my self as a Pitbull fans . but i just love this song so much .

hahaha Pitbull sure can pull he sexy outta this song . and ne-yo's voice is so cute and sexy too.

well i was staring at him when he sing this song thats why i pretty much still can playback that one.

today im goin home .. well tomorrow mowningg?! or afternoon.

well i was thinking theres no change too meet him at all.

until when i we up in sunday morning and i bbm him as usual.

i didn't expect him to reply, i was too disappointed to wish .

then again suddenly he said he had time to meet me. it was a shocked ......

i run to my pretty little shorty aunty . and rush her to take a bath...

HE'S FUCKIN WAITING DUDE!! COMMON RUSH A BIT!!!

and we are finally on our way . my fuckin aunty give rules, that she want me to go alone meet him..... like serious?! im so fckin nervous ... when we arrived there i saw his white jazz...

and that tweddledee and tweddledummer VANISH ALREADY.

now its on my own , when i get to his car window , he was on the phone with.... well i don't know, puh-lezz i was to nervous to think.

but i was so happy seeing him there ...... i felt like...... oh my god ... finally ... after 54 hours of running 'round his town .

we started some conversation as usual he's guard is up ..... but one thing hurt me more than anything that second... finding out that he had someone else.... well just make it two.

you know what that i feel back there.... gashed. devastated . felt like just been stab..

i hold my tears for minutes .. my biggest willingness to cry at the day. but i cant cry there.

well........... i got thru that....... i can hold my tears down.

he gave us a ride home .. and that tweddltwins is out . i still wanna talk to him .. but that fuckin police... well security ... or whoever that man is ruined my moment of truth .

FOR THE LOVE OF THE GOD PLEASE SIR ... IN THE MIDDLE OF SOMETHING HERE!!!

well thank god i gave him the PIECE OF PROVE . the flash disk.

so i get out of his car run in .... go upstairs and cry my ass out.

i never hold my tears that long in my life .. seriously it hurt so bad but i have to let go.

if its his happiness i'm fine ..... i'm okay .

i bought ticket to go back home right away .... and well i leave around 4 . bye bandung. thankyou for the chance ...

this is 58 hours adventure of life. the first time i travel alone ..

i put my headset on again ... started with all the jam again... just try not to cry .

half way there , i check my phone . and suddenly theres a message .....

from: HIM

" Div............ this is the sweetest thing anyone has ever gave me"

shoot my i'm out of phone credit acc ...... then again the second one .

from: HIM

"Omg diva...... This is so sweet of you......... You made me cry"

i was overjoyed .... and the last one is encouraging me to jump and go back.

from: HIM

" I trust you div, I always trusted you.... And that was amazing ........ Where are you? I really need to see you........"

GOD DAMN IT! i'm on my fuckin way home .

but it such a relieve, that i finally prove it .... this 3 days doesn't waste.

i love you ..... as long as i breath ....... may not be eternally ...... but all my life

i hope you'll come back ...

8.11.2009

i'll be here .........

-me

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salah ya kalo seorang cewe nangis garagara cowo?gak cuman cewe doang deh cowo juga,slah ya nangis? gue rasa nangis itu gasalah,apalagi yang nangis itu mahluk selembut cewe,se-tomobytomboy-nya cewe,dia tetep cewe.
Kadang ada cowo yang gasuka ngeliat cewe nangis tapi justru lo bisa liat sifat asli cewe waktu dia nangis ,karna kalo cewe nangis tandanya dia udh gak kuat lagi tandanya dia udh cape.
Nangis itu normal its healing your feeling itmakes you feel better,kalo lo mau nangis ya nangis aja supaya lega supaya ganyesek kalo lomau teriakteriak sambil nangis ya lakuin aja just do it !! jangan takut lo gaush perduli kalopun seleruh dunia bilang lo cengeng tapi nangis itu melegakan nangis itu bikin lo lebih tenang nangis itu salahsatu cara yang paling enak buat nyalurin perasaan lo !so just do it !
Kalo seorang cewe nangis dalem pelukan cowo tandanya cewe iti udh percaya banget sama lo tandanya cewe ini percaya banget sama lo entah sebagai apa dia nganggep lo.
Kalo cewe nangis di peluka seorang cewe tandanya cewe itu adalah sahabat sejatinya.
Sama aja cowok juga gitu,apalagi cowok mahluk yang paling jarang melakukan kegiatan menangis kalo sampe seorang cowo itu sampe bisa nangis dihadapan seorang cewe tandanya ya cowo itu benerbener udh percaya banget sma cewe itu kalo cwo nangis dihadapan cowo laen ada tapi gue jarang menemukan kyk gtu intiny sh sama tandnya lo shbt sejatinya.
Jadi yang namanya nangis itu gapernah salah bego lo kalo gasuka ngeliat dia nangis depan lo harusnya lo beruntung karna tandanya di beneran syg bgt sama lo !
So if you wanna cry just do it cause cry is never wrong I know its not solving problem but its healing you heart and soul it makes you stronger ! Whenever it is just do it

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jadi malem ini kita ngebahas tentang LDR alias long distance relationship.
ya dan yang kita dapetin adalah .
ternyata ngejalanin LDR itu gak gampang selain karna terpaut jarak yang jauh juga kurangnya komunikasi diantara dua orang ini yang bikin LDR ini jadi makin sulit .
kalo kita mau berhasil sama yang namanya LDR yaaa yang kita butuhin sih cuman satu yaitu PERCAYA .
gak lupa juga dilengkapi hal hal yang lain kayak saling ngertiin aja satu sama lain.
kebanyakan orang itu LDR garagara salah satunya tiba-tiba pindah.
nah ada juga yang
emang dari awal pacaran udah LDR .
kalo masalah yang pertama itu biasanya gak bertahan garagara rasa kurang percaya sama kurang komunikasinya juga ,yang biasanya seminggu 2 kali ketemu sekarang cuma bisa kayak 2 bulan sekali ato bahkan 6 bulan sampe 1tahun sekali.
itu juga bikin komunikasi antara keduanya jadi kurang karna merasa ato tidak merasa yang namanya ngobrol di telpon sama tatap muka itu punya efek yang beda juga .
untuk nanganin masalah kayak gini cuma satu caranya
sama sama ngerti dan berfikir dewasa jangan egois sendiri dan untuk yang ketiga kalinya gue bilang PERCAYA itu pnting banget .
kalo masalah yang kedua emang agak susah sih buat dipertahankan.
cuma jangan pesimis selalu ada kesempatan.
biasanya masalah yang kayak gini kan berarti jarang tatap muka.
malahan gapernah ngalamin saat dimana nyaris tiap hari tatap muka jadi mungkin kita emang ngerti pasangan kita cuma kita gak sepenuhnya ngerti dia kadang yang kayak masalah pertama aja suka bnyak yg kurang ngerti satu sama lain.
makanya sama aja samasama harus bersikap dewasa jangan egois.
so intinya cuma satu sebenernya TRUST and DONT BE CHILDISH .
intinya PERCAYA dan JANGAN KAYAK ANAK KECIL .
coba bersikap dewasa.
thanks for reading .

how it is goes

here how it goes.

waiting is never easy, time and place is always been a problem for me.

space between us feels like more than just space.

i don't care how far you stand from where i stand.

if its too far i don't mind.

all matters is where's your heart stands now?

you're here. you're there

you said once that you love me and now you just don't

you cast words, sounds like promises but they're not

you push me down, you cause me wound, but its not your fault

you care but then you don't

it feels like you are here sometimes.

but the rest gone with the time that flew so fast with no boundaries and no line

time didn't go reverse,and that machine to turn back just doesn't exist

just go if you're willing to go.

stay if you want to.

be here when you are supposed to be here.

and leave me when you choose to.

you are stuck and haunted by the ghost of my past. why just don't despite that fact.

stick to what you said and do the same.

don't say stay, if you are leaving

and don't say bye if you are staying.

i'm so fed up with all your revenge.

but my feet doesn't move anywhere.

i'm so tired with you but my heart doesn't stop believe in you.

can't you see?talking to you doesn't felt the same anymore.

where did you left your old self, just let me go and take it back.

i'm sorry for being so over-whelming .

i'm sorry if somehow i'm covered with selfishness.

but i just need you to be honest and answer me.

and then i'm done ...