THIS GUY OVER HERE IS THE CUTEST GUY EVER.

AS U KNOW I ONLY POSTED TWO PICTURE INCLUDING THIS ONE.

EVERRRRR

THE FIRST ONE IS . MY BELOVED NICHOLAS JOSEPH BRAUN.

AND NOW THIS GUY .
NAMED REY :)
SO CUTE . I LOVE HIS SMILE . ESPECIALLY HIS CUTE DIMPLE . GORGEOUS . TOTALLY .

weird weird dream

yes, i just have the weirdest dream ever .
you know what .
i dream that i kissed greggy .
that's really weird . its neophyte for my limbo .
its totally new . and weird . i dont know how many time i said weird.
so ts started out 3 days ago i had a dream about greggy .
so he take my hand . he ran . pulling me towards the forest and then i remember there is an enormous mansion, and he pulled me in .
suddenly i saw a lot of guns inside the house . he said someone tried to kill me .
funny, the mafia boss is actually Iglesias .. you know the fat guy from the last comic standing , funny right .... but im scared still, because he tried to kill me . so inside the mansion there is Astrd Thalia and SS. they are all armed . everybody got guns and knife .
so does greggy he got 4 guns .
and suddenly i can't remember how did i get there but for some reason we arrived in front of the door of one of the room in the gigantic mansion . so turns out all the room is ocupied already, and locked down already . so me and greggy only left with one room in the end of the hallway.
we get in and we see what we supposed to see inside a room .
so then we went out to the porch, and then we looked beyond the forest to the city where there are war happenning. and i can see the fire being shooted vividly from one side to the other one, the explosion sound of granade hit the ground . and there we are, looking beyond the horizon, in silence, in a cold night, where i can hardly see stars. so greggy suddenly give a jacket, he said he already have a vest so i can have his jacket . because its so damn cold and its bullet proof jacket for my protection anyway.
and then he put his arm around my neck, and i put my head on his chest . and the he hold my face, i looked at him and then he put away his hand, for some reason maybe im petrefied and i did not realize what he did .
and





BAMMMMMMM!!!!!

he shoot me . and i die
so he is one of THEM
he's bad guy in cover .


and then i wake up, my heart is beating faster than ever. i can feel the bullet through my chest dude . common.

and the last night even weirder dream im having .
i kissed him. in grey background. literally weird .
i dont understand what happen .

i really really am confused .

change the world project .

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Imma post songs that I wrote.

This song is for the change . of the future. Im no musician, so the melody of the song will follow up later.

My eyes are hurting

Seeing the sight of this street

Something that’ll make you

Die a little bit inside

That old guy walk his feet upon

The hot burning street

The old woman sweeps the road

From one end to other one.

As the future coming

Closer…

The view gets more and more hurting.

Where is the better place?

You’ve been promising

Where is the better life?

You’ve been talking about?

Where is the future?

You’ve said will change

But nothing will ever change

If that stone cold heart stays the same

My eyes is hurting

Seeing the sight of this street

Something that’ll make you

Die a little bit inside

The kids are begging instead of laughing

The ill are begging instead of being heal

As the future coming

Closer…

The view gets more and more hurting.

Where is the better place?

You’ve been promising

Where is the better life?

You’ve been talking about

Where is the future?

You’ve said will change

Nothing will ever change

If you don’t change you .

post i didnt get a chance to pusblish.

Finally I get my PC to work again.

This mean I can blog anytime ……… at granma’s house because my mother doesn’t provide an internet connection at home . while my granma’s house have internet connection, but no PC . so im moving my PC there....

I will have fun hanging out there .

Anyway..

Im so sick today so I’m unable to go to school today, I don’t think tomorrow also.

Im so tired . sick to death .

If only I have an internet connection at home . it will be so hard to move my ass off from this room .

Is spend my day watching tv today, and bragging about kind food I crave . I still crave for BERRY jelly and cupcakes .

Because acit rings the bell about the cupcakes thingy .

Anyway … I lost my usb .. so sad. I think I lost my memory card too . and did I mention that my phone is broken? Wanna know why? Spend more than 4 hours in water……. Thankkkss to that fried rice mas-mas ruined my life .

So now I’m monopolizing my brother’s phone .

Since nobody calling him nor text him anyway .

Its so useless to bought him a blackeberry seriously .

He’s the one who bbm-in everybody .

Anyway ……………. As long as he remains in silent when I use his phone, then I’m good then .

Hafez's House........ (super glue)

every single time i visit hafez's house something must have been glued me to the house.
i cant go home no mattter how many time i said
" i wanna go home"
its not working .......................
first i went there with hafez . crazy-ing for a while . and we went to hafez's brother room
FAQIH FALA SHEEHAN LOULEMBAH . well you can call him FAFA .
he's my high school senior . 12th grader .
everytime me, hafez and fafa start a conf. it will take a very very highy amount of energy to pull me outa the house .
we laugh like crazy talking about all the things in school or even outside of school.
we're as crazy as hell.
like today for example .
i came and then talk with ka FAFA like we've known each other forever .
HAHAHAHAHA funny . and then the craziest idea came to FAFA's head . we make a video call to KA IRRRVAAAAANNNNNNN!!!!! haha and the conf. is getting even more retarted than before .
the bad thing is . we can't hear ka irvan's voice . so he replied our loud voice conf via chat .
its so crazy that we talk about everything and laugh so hard .
listenn to BIGBANG new videos and watching TRIO MACAN new video... and some guy called AGUNG HERCULES singing the song called "asanti" or sumthing i refuse to remember . but its veryveryvery SWOOOOGGGGG . EPICCCCCC FAILIURE. AND LAMEEEEEEE. literally .
and we laugh our ass off.
me and ka FAFA is faking bule accent . very fail.
see i once said i can never walk out from hafez's house before 11 o'clock if there's the present of ka fafa .
now my mom and oma is calling and texting me like GUSTA .

hahahaha .

and you know what these two brother are super glue .

love'em muchhhh ............

on a day like this...........

Im hypnotized by Craig David’s song ….

“Don’t love you no more”

I don’t know why . I don’t think because the lyrics related to me also.

Just FYI I usually repeated a song if is related to my real life … but this one? No .

Better show you the lyric of the chorus first .

: that’s when you turn said to me

‘ I don’t care babe its right or wrong, I just don’t love you no more’

Rain outside my window pouring down .

But now you’re gone my fault I’m sorry

Feeling like a fool cause I let you down

Now its too late to turn it around

I’m sorry for the tears I made you cry .

But I guess this time really is goodbye

You made it clear when you said

I just don’t love you no more

But I guess what’s so catchy about this song is the melody .

Its so romantic, so easy-listen-too melody .

Yet the lyric is quite dark….its about a broke up .

Its cool how can they mixed that up .

Just like James Morrison’s song . ‘Broken String’

Its also have a great melody yet sad story .

I also love to listen to that song . I used to rewind it for hours and hours .

Well there’s gonna be a time where I will listen to that song again…. Someday maybe, but for now Craig intoxicate me with his song . can’t stop listening to it .

Talking about music . my beloved country Indonesia now become a warehouse of Boyband & Girlband …. Hell man .

None of them are even close to westlife .

Okay westlife would’ve been too high to be comparison .

Hw abt …. One Direction? Nu-uh still too high .

Lets try …. The Wanted? Still too high .

What are they trying to be? JoBros? SuperJunior?BigBang? SHinee? WHAT?!

SPEAK TO ME …… rather than you destroying the music industries of Indonesia . truly . it’s a shame, they cant dance, cant synchronize the dance, most of them even don’t know how to sing .

So what are they trying to do? Somebody just lost about the definition of ‘listen to your conscience’ seriously this is gotta end man . before this country become an Epic Fail Copy of Korea .

You have to bring them back to the right path of life . scream before their ears that are capable to hear that “ NOT FRIGGIN EVERYBODY CAN BE K-POP SUPERSTAR THINGY “ so stop trying your ass off and waste your time on something you know you’ll never get….

Wait a minute……………. ‘on something you know you’ll never get’ this word fit perfectly to my teen-life-love-crappy-story .

I often waste my time on some one I know I’ll never get .

Then I end up hurting cause I wasn’t careful and become reckless . loving who ever I thought the best at the time .

Some words and hugs …….. flirt talks … and stares…. And little things . and I fall hard .

Little thing is usually the things we remember the most … those corny boring slightly romantic moment .

Like one moment when he said he love me . explicitly romantic way .

When I wanna kiss his cheeks and he pushes his self away, blinded my face with pillow . and he kissed my forehead instead.

Or …. When we talked for hours about the most pointless things ever .

Sometimes we know it’s a stupid things but its still seems so beautiful . you all hypocrite people around the world, who said you’re an independent person and just hate those love craps . I’m asking you from the deepest layer of my heart, have you ever been in love? Have you ever felt all the butterfly in your stomach? The warmth that you feel inside . the endless smiling and constant euphoria. Gravity means nothing. Nothing at all because you’re floating . you’re free . you’re flying amid the clutter of mess we human made.

And did you ever felt the longing when minutes felt like hours. And all you wish for is the day to swiftly kissed the world goodbye then the night become so much longer . did you ever felt like nothing in the world can bring you down and don’t you ever felt so curious…. Wondering how a person can make you smile with anything thee does to you .

West side story is true . be in love for girls make them feel pretty . and witty . and nearly insane HAHAHA . well being in love is wonderful .

And being hurt isn’t an excuse to be afraid to fallin in love again .

Just like dream & hopes. Love also only come for them who still believe in it .

Don’t say you’re somebody if you lose your power of loving someone else.