still........... i just wanna see his face i don't go sitting like a total idiot for 3 hours in a fuckin mini bus contain strangers for nothing.
well i finally decided to just having fun. in fact NO FUN AT ALL , i mean i have fun its just not like that.
i was here for him at the first place, but i didn't blame him .
cause he didn't ask me to come here at the first place, i went here by my own thought .
but but but .. i don't know why everything just sound not right .
now i put my headset on, and plugged the aux to my phone repeating Give Me Everything - Pitbull Ft. Ne-yo cause i can imagine his face singing this song.
well he did sing thing song on our way home after incredible3 , i never picture my self as a Pitbull fans . but i just love this song so much .
hahaha Pitbull sure can pull he sexy outta this song . and ne-yo's voice is so cute and sexy too.
well i was staring at him when he sing this song thats why i pretty much still can playback that one.
today im goin home .. well tomorrow mowningg?! or afternoon.
well i was thinking theres no change too meet him at all.
until when i we up in sunday morning and i bbm him as usual.
i didn't expect him to reply, i was too disappointed to wish .
then again suddenly he said he had time to meet me. it was a shocked ......
i run to my pretty little shorty aunty . and rush her to take a bath...
HE'S FUCKIN WAITING DUDE!! COMMON RUSH A BIT!!!
and we are finally on our way . my fuckin aunty give rules, that she want me to go alone meet him..... like serious?! im so fckin nervous ... when we arrived there i saw his white jazz...
and that tweddledee and tweddledummer VANISH ALREADY.
now its on my own , when i get to his car window , he was on the phone with.... well i don't know, puh-lezz i was to nervous to think.
but i was so happy seeing him there ...... i felt like...... oh my god ... finally ... after 54 hours of running 'round his town .
we started some conversation as usual he's guard is up ..... but one thing hurt me more than anything that second... finding out that he had someone else.... well just make it two.
you know what that i feel back there.... gashed. devastated . felt like just been stab..
i hold my tears for minutes .. my biggest willingness to cry at the day. but i cant cry there.
well........... i got thru that....... i can hold my tears down.
he gave us a ride home .. and that tweddltwins is out . i still wanna talk to him .. but that fuckin police... well security ... or whoever that man is ruined my moment of truth .
FOR THE LOVE OF THE GOD PLEASE SIR ... IN THE MIDDLE OF SOMETHING HERE!!!
well thank god i gave him the PIECE OF PROVE . the flash disk.
so i get out of his car run in .... go upstairs and cry my ass out.
i never hold my tears that long in my life .. seriously it hurt so bad but i have to let go.
if its his happiness i'm fine ..... i'm okay .
i bought ticket to go back home right away .... and well i leave around 4 . bye bandung. thankyou for the chance ...
this is 58 hours adventure of life. the first time i travel alone ..
i put my headset on again ... started with all the jam again... just try not to cry .
half way there , i check my phone . and suddenly theres a message .....
from: HIM
" Div............ this is the sweetest thing anyone has ever gave me"
shoot my i'm out of phone credit acc ...... then again the second one .
from: HIM
"Omg diva...... This is so sweet of you......... You made me cry"
i was overjoyed .... and the last one is encouraging me to jump and go back.
from: HIM
" I trust you div, I always trusted you.... And that was amazing ........ Where are you? I really need to see you........"
GOD DAMN IT! i'm on my fuckin way home .
but it such a relieve, that i finally prove it .... this 3 days doesn't waste.
i love you ..... as long as i breath ....... may not be eternally ...... but all my life
i hope you'll come back ...
8.11.2009
i'll be here .........
-me
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