piece of regret...

what am i supposed to do to make my momma proud?
im no perfect i know,i really wish i could be the perfect child for my mom, because she is the perfect mom for me .
mom if you read this one day . all im saying is sorry
for all the flaws that i have that always make you sad and disappointed, i never meant to do it.
im sorry for being such and idiot girl,but you have to know that i always listen to you mom.
all the things you said is remembered in my stupid head.
im sorry for maybe walking at the wrong path of life.
but i promise you that one day i'll make you proud of me.
im sorry for being a different teenagers than what you expected .
and now i really wish i could just cry so hard due to the fact that im such a failure.
now everytime i heard simple plan- perfect i burst into tears.
its hurt so much ...

hey MOM look at me
Think back, and talk to me
Did I grow up according to plan?
And do you think I'm wasting my time
Doing things I want to do?
But it hurts when you disapproved all along
And now I try hard to make it
I just want to make you proud
I'm never gonna be good enough for
You can't pretend that I'm alright
And you can't change me.....


Cause we lost it all
Nothin' lasts forever
I'm sorry I can't be perfect
Now it's just too late
And we can't go back
I'm sorry I can't be perfect
I try not to think
About the pain I feel inside
Did you know you used to be my hero?
All the days you spent with me
Now seem so far away
And it feels like you don't care any more
And now I try hard to make it
I just want to make you proud
I'm never gonna be good enough for you
I can't stand another fight
And nothing's all right

im sorry mom .

i love you mom.
im sorry i cant be perfect.

february 12th,2012