damn and always damn !

grandy jadian.......
sabar divaaa,iya gapapa kok udah sering banget gue ngalamin yang kyk gini udah biasa ya nggak.
jadi waktu hari jum at itu gue ke tempat latihan shuffle .
dan itu pertama kalinya gue ngeliat cewenya grandy dann guess what dia itu temen gua TEMEN GUE, bisa bayangiin gimana perasaan gue ngeliat mereka pacaran depan mata gue SAKIT HATI BANGET TAU GAK ANJING !! gue bersikap biasa aja depan mereka bertingkah kayak gue sirik aja ngeliat mereka pacaran padahal gue sirik banget ngeliat cewe itu pacaran sama grandy.
dan again hari sabtu di pim ha ha cukup kan hampir tiap saat gue ngeliat mereka pacaran.
sabar banget yahh..
huhu gue nggak kuat sampe nangis sendiri gitu aneh banget gue nggak tau knp katanya emang gaush nangisini cowok gue tau tapi nyeseknya cuman bisa lega kalo misalnya gue nangis.
kenapa harus ngeliat setiap mereka barengan knp gue harus ngeliat?hah?gue tanya sama lo semua?kenapa? kenapa gak selama gue suka sama grandy gue gatau mereka jadian,ato paling nggak gue gakenal sama cewe nya it will be better than seeing my friends is in a relation ship with the guy i like and seeing them dating every single time right before my eyes.
is my life suppose to be this way?is my life is suppose to be this hard?i wondering every single second.
i know life is always hard,than i'll be rather death because its so much peacefull,than this crazy painfull life.
but what can i do?take him away from her?its really not me?maybe i was born to be hurt like this?but i believe there is happiness behind this torture.
just yeah life is one damn thing over and over,and you are one damn thing that last forever.